Circular-causality

“I do not consider divorce an evil by any means. It is just as much a refuge for women married to brutal men as Canada was to the slaves of brutal masters.”   –  Susan B. Anthony

” If love does not know how to give and take without restrictions, it is not love but a transaction that never fails to lay stress on a plus and minus.”  –  Emma Goldman

***

Circular-causality

When I left

You

I lay in a

Bed

One pillow

Undisturbed

Sleeping peacefully

At last

When I left

You

The weight of

The world

Toppled

Cascading

From weary shoulders

When I left you

My footsteps – yet

Unsure – guarded

Plodded forward

Into the unknown world

Of learning

You and

Others told me – I could

Not make it

When I left you

There were new friends

Trips to the theatre, museums

Classes, professors

While I was

Looking over my

Shoulder

Waiting for the

Failure

Yet we kept a roof

Over our heads

And each semester

I moved toward the promises

Of the next

My eyes opened wider

With each new step

Experiences extrapolated

The view

Bachelor’s degree

Then a Masters

Adding up

Priorities

You could never

Comprehend

Introspection

Those early

Terrifying,

Stumbling

Footfalls

Learning to dream

Setting boundaries

Having goals

Dreaming

Believing

Allowing the

Dream to

Come true

When

I left

You

***

Bisous,

Léa

Author: Léa

A wanderer who has found home and herself in the South of France.

16 thoughts on “Circular-causality”

      1. You managed to shine through it all too!! And by no means did you fail!!! So don’t ever wait for that to happen because its not going to.. You have proved your strength ❤ xx

    1. Hi Carly, so good to hear from you. Thanks for the encouragement. Perhaps it was a case of making some really good lemonade from all those lemons…
      xxxx

    1. Sometimes we do not have a clue what we can accomplish.

      Sometimes, the dream was not big enough and we pushed farther…

      Now, we cannot stop smiling. Merci beaucoup!

    1. While I cannot claim that intent while writing it, once you point it out, I can see that. Having “been there” gave me many tools that were useful with my clients in the future. Thank you.

    1. How kind. Thank you! It has been a long journey but where I am now is way beyond anything I could have dreamed. I just can’t stop smiling!

  1. i’m glad she found her way and was able to live her dreams…i also like the goldman quote…yeah… if all it is is a transaction that never fails to lay stress on a plus and minus, it’s probably better to move on…

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